You’re useless. You’re ugly. You’re a fraud.
Voices I thought I’d silenced.
You don’t belong in church.
Voices that keep me hidden in the darkness.
You’re making a fool of yourself.
Voices that tell me to lie and hide and give up and turn inwards.
You’re weak and you’re rubbish and you’re not even a Christian because a real Christian wouldn’t struggle like you.
A real Christian wouldn’t feel frightened of people and new situations and changes in routine and losing control and not having enough and having too much and being a burden and not helping and needing, needing, needing to be carried all the time in even the tiniest things.
But these voices aren’t from the Spirit.
The Spirit challenges, but He doesn’t condemn.
These voices smell of smoke.
Though they say different things, we all hear them
They try to shame us and separate us from God and others.
But here’s the thing.
They’re screaming so loud because they know their time is short.
They’ve been defeated.
They have no power.
We don’t have to listen to them. One day soon, they’ll be completely silenced. But for today, there’s another voice, quieter, but stronger than the rest:
‘I love you. I will never leave you. There is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus’.