Play to your weaknesses

By June 15, 2018 Blog

Years ago, I remember praying with Glen. (We have prayed together since then but this one stands out). We were relatively new Christians and and he said something like, ‘Lord if suffering will bring us closer to you, then let your will be done’.  ‘What?’ I hissed – ‘Are you asking for suffering?’ ‘Not exactly,’ he began… Elbowing him, I cleared my throat and in my prayer voice (louder), continued, “Sorry Lord, can we stop right there.  I would like …Read More

Begin Again Land: Guest Post

By June 7, 2018 Blog

I love this post from Glen… The frown, the pout, the head cocked, the bottom lip thrust out… who teaches toddlers how to sulk? It’s not a look we’ve tried to inculcate. It must be some kind of primeval muscle memory. Down the generations, identical whinges have emerged from three year olds, like secret lemon juice messages becoming visible under the iron. Children are marked with the sulking signature. When the heat is on, out it comes. Sometimes, if it’s …Read More

How to ru(i)n your life

By May 30, 2018 Blog

Go with your heart.  And follow your feelings. Keep it in.  If you open up, they will reject you. Deal with it yourself. So, take control. For every look at Jesus, take 12 looks at yourself. Don’t hope and don’t try.  You’ll fail and you’ll be disappointed. Live by the word ‘should.’ Everything is black or white.  Good or bad. Success or failure. Put yourself first. Earn it. Do everything perfectly.  You are worthless if you don’t. Stay away from …Read More

Getting God’s love

By May 22, 2018 Blog

I know it in my head. The bible tells me. My church preaches it. I sing about it.  I even tell myself. I’m loved by God – but I don’t always feel it. And if I don’t feel it, then what’s the point? There are plenty of alternatives. I down a coffee and can take on the world. I buy toys for my daughter and instantly feel better.  I press ‘play’ and the real world disappears. I hit ‘send’ and …Read More

Advice to my younger self

By May 15, 2018 Blog

Dear 13 year-old me. First, the good news. There is an adult you and she’s doing ok. You will survive your exams. You live in a world without social media. In a few years, you won’t care so much about what everyone else thinks about you – but there’s some work for God to do first. You have a daughter AND a lovely husband. (NB: when the ‘love of your life’ dumps you, don’t panic. He’s not the One). You …Read More

Grace sufficient

By May 7, 2018 Blog

“I hate myself.” “I have no hope.  I have no future.” “I’m so ashamed.” “I don’t belong in church.” “Why did He make me like this?”   “I have/have had problems with my mental health.” “I feel my weakness.” “I don’t quite fit.” “I believe the gospel but I don’t feel it.” “I’m afraid.” If you feel these things, then know that Jesus is for you.  You are not beyond the pale, or outside of the camp.  In your weakness …Read More

Comfort, Courage and Counterfeits

By April 29, 2018 Blog

My daughter has just started nursery.  For a three year-old this is a very big deal, so we talked beforehand about what she could expect. A new place and new people.  New things to learn; new toys and routines. ‘Mummy and daddy won’t be there’ we said, ‘but you can take Derek.’ Derek is Ruby’s dinosaur; and where she goes, he follows.  The park and the toilet and the beach and the bus. She told Derek ‘I love you,’ long …Read More

Waiting on the Lord

By April 20, 2018 Blog

But those who wait on the Lord Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31   What does it mean to wait for the Lord? waiting expectantly – trusting that we’re not treading water, or wasting time.  God hasn’t forgotten about us.  He hears; and this waiting is part of His answer focusing on His faithfulness in the past.  Looking to His …Read More

Mental Illness: To share – or not?

By April 10, 2018 Blog

A friend who lives overseas and has had mental health (MH) issues, is applying for a job. She’s filled in most of the application, but there’s one box still to complete: ‘Do you have, or have you had any MH conditions?’ She writes about her concerns: “I wonder, where does this leave me? Potentially not telling the full truth and being seen as dishonest if I’m ever found out, or telling the truth and never being considered ever, owing to …Read More

Because Jesus has Risen…

By March 31, 2018 Blog

1. He’s the God He always said He was. 2. He’s the Saviour we always hoped He’d be. 3. He’s the Lord that the enemy always feared would triumph. 4. Death is dead. More than dead – it is defeated, humiliated, laid bare. 5. Jesus took our sins to the grave and left them there. 6. Jesus stepped out of the tomb into new life, and that new life is ours. 7. Our old lives are like the grave clothes left …Read More