The face of anorexia is not a glossy model in a perfume ad. It’s a starving animal, circling the empty cupboards, blank-eyed and vacant. It’s a face frozen in a rictus grin, mouthing lies. ‘I’m fine,’ it says. ‘Everything is under control.’
‘I have always felt hungry,’ says Emma Scrivener. ‘Not just for food, but for everything: from money to recognition. I’m a human chasm, a vortex of insatiable longing.’
Rescued from a disorder that nearly killed her, Emma is now passionate about warning others about the dark and hidden world she inhabited for too long.
Harrowing, heart-breaking, human and humorous, this book will grip you from start to finish. Wonder with Emma as God’s grace breaks through and reshapes her heart and thinking, redeeming that which had seemed lost.
‘A moving and beautifully written book for all who want to think through what it is to be human. Utterly enthralling and eye-opening, it exposes just how very deep our problems go, and yet how healing is Christ. This is going to turn lives around.’
— Mike Reeves, Head of Theology, UCCF.
‘Beautifully written, shocking, searingly honest, inspiring. This book made me laugh and weep. I recommend this book for those struggling with eating disorders and for those who try to support them. The most helpful book on anorexia I have read’.
— John Wyatt, Emeritus Professor of Neonatal Paediatrics at University College London
‘I could not put this book down. It had me gripped from the first page. It is an autobiographical account of the author’s struggle with life-threateningly severe anorexia. Not the cheeriest of topics but this is compelling and readable without feeling voyeuristic. It is beautifully written. Being an Oxford English graduate and a self confessed perfectionist probably helps. Her passionate personality is able to walk off the page and she seems effortlessly to say what she means. She is able to explain what anorexia feels like, what drives it, what in her head she was hoping to achieve, and the factors which meant she chose this way to cope with life. I have never read anything about eating disorders which approaches this in clarity and insight. Emma is intelligent, articulate, analytical, theological, was severely affected and is now recovered.’
— Annie Gemmill, GP and minister’s wife