Signs it’s time to ask for help

By September 19, 2017 Blog

–       You say that you’re fine; but you know that you’re not –       You’ve said ‘I’ll get better’ but you’re just getting worse. –       Everything is terrible and it’s all your fault –       Acting recklessly or putting yourself in danger –       Forgetting to do big things that matter; like washing or eating –       Not being able to make sense of anything –       Finding basic tasks impossible –       Using drugs, alcohol or damaging …Read More

Project Justify-Me

By March 10, 2017 Blog

Guest post from Glen… Tuesday night, 11:30pm. After 5 hours at A&E, Emma and I were putting a screaming toddler to bed. The doorbell went. “Who could that be?” asked Emma. Somehow I knew. Clarity pierced through the cloud of tiredness, set-upon-ness, and noble sufferer-ness that I’d been nurturing all evening. Suddenly I realised I was guilty – of a crime that, without the doorbell, I’d have blithely ignored. But with the bell came instant conviction. And rest. You see, …Read More

Joy is what you fight for

By November 7, 2016 Blog

“Choose happiness.” It’s an easy phrase, isn’t it?  Catchy.  Scratch it over a sunset and hang it on the wall.  A simple decision.  Today, I choose to be happy. Bang; and it’s done. This is what I’m told. The reality can be very different.  It’s all well and good when you’re well and good…but when you’re not, – well.  Positive thinking doesn’t make it any better. Happiness happens to you. It’s there or it’s not. It’s your situation. The home you’ve dreamed …Read More

A Prayer for Monday

By April 10, 2016 Blog

Dear God It’s the start of a new week. And I don’t know how to do it. I feel scattered; pushed and pulled in many different directions. I take my eyes off you and suddenly, I’m stuck. I’m frightened by the decisions that need to be made; and ones that are out of my hands. by the things I can’t see.  And the demands I can’t meet. I’m overwhelmed By lists and by longings. By pain and by pride. It’s dark in here. I build walls to keep myself …Read More

Dear Me

By March 7, 2016 Blog

What do you do with the past?  The ways you’ve been broken?  The things that you broke? What do you do with the voices?  The accusations?  The lies? Jesus died.  But not for me. Jesus died. But not for this. No. There is no sin that the cross does not cover.  There is no pain that Christ cannot heal. Listen to this.  A letter that a dear friend has written to her younger self.  A letter that shows what it means …Read More

Yes He Can

By January 22, 2016 Blog

I can’t do it. That thing. The habit I need to break. The phone call I keep putting off. The book I want to write. The truth I need to face. I can’t clean the oven. I can’t give up the smokes. I can’t take charge of my finances. I can’t care for my elderly parents. I can’t love my difficult child.  I can’t get out of bed. I can’t say it’s over.  I can’t give it another chance.   I can’t do it …Read More

The Wounded Healer

By November 9, 2015 Blog

There’s a girl who is hurting.  She says she’s ok. But her scars tell you different.  She says ” look away.” Others have hurt her. They seem to have gone. But she says she can’t stop it and everything’s wrong. It doesn’t make sense.  She says, Stop Being Weird. But the pain she controls is what squashes her fears. Because it works; and nothing else does. Because the people she loves hurt her; and now the pain feels like love. Because she needs to …Read More

Severe Mercy

By October 29, 2015 Blog

My favourite verse: But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. (2 Corinthians 12:9). I identify as someone who’s weak.  And often, I despise it.  The way my brain stumbles, but tells me that it knows the way.  The things I find hard, that others find easy.  My fears.  My …Read More

Stuck?

By October 19, 2015 Blog

1. sometimes you’ll feel angry or sad or overwhelmed or unsafe or crazy.  These feelings are not the truth. They are feelings and they will pass. 2. your circumstances will change. Suffering has a ‘used by’ date. Only Jesus’ future is forever. There is hope. You will feel better. 3. when everyday tasks feel overwhelming, breathe and remind yourself to go a step at a time.  Try to keep to routines; but don’t beat yourself up when you can’t. 4. you may feel alone …Read More

Guest Post: Can Despair Be Worship?

By August 19, 2015 Blog

Glen here. On Sunday I preached the darkest Psalm in the Bible: Psalm 88. It’s 18 verses of unrelenting anguish and confusion and yet… the Holy Spirit authored it, Jesus prayed it and the Father hears it. In fact he has continued to hear it prayed by millions around the world for the best part of three millennia. It belongs to a whole category of Psalms – laments – which are the most common forms of prayer in the Psalter. Almost …Read More