The Shape of Me: Guest Post

By July 11, 2017 Blog

Thanks so much to H for this brilliant guest post…   I am so, so caught with my appearance…I know this is only a symptom of deeper problems. Yet I just want to pause and ask the question, why am I so concerned with ‘the shape of me’? It is right to care how I present myself because I am not just my own person. Being concerned with ‘the shape of me’ is a desire that needs to be channelled, focused, redirected. I …Read More

Seeing Through The Sneers

By April 18, 2016 Blog

I’m tired of cynicism. Propping up the bar, all dark and self-conscious. You’re cool mate, but you’re miserable too. Standing back and passing judgement. Stamping on Shrugging at other people’s parades. Sneering, ‘it’ll never work. The world’s not like that.” Refusing to ever see the good. Well, forget it. It’s been fun…well – interesting, while it lasted.  But I’ve met someone new. Someone you know. Hope.  Yeah, her. The one we used to laugh at. “Unfashionable and embarrassing,” we said. …Read More

God in the Laundry

By January 28, 2016 Blog

God uses us where we are. I believe this for others.  The ways they look after their partners and their families.  The impact they make in their work and community. Gosh, I think, God is really using you. Then I look at myself.  And I’m not so sure. Today, I did not start my own business. I didn’t redecorate the front room.  I didn’t save a life or give blood.  I didn’t close a deal. I didn’t bring aid to refugees. …Read More

Anti-resolutions

By January 4, 2016 Blog

This year, by God’s grace: 1. I will not try to get my body into better shape. I’ll learn to love the one I’ve got. 2. I will not work harder.  I’ll accept free and liberating grace. 3. I will not do more.  I’ll glory in Jesus and soak up His rest. 4. I will not make more time for me.  I’ll ask God to help me lift my eyes to the world I forget. 5. I will not feel guilty.  I’ll go …Read More

You Can Do It?

By October 5, 2015 Blog

You can be anything you want to be. Nonsense.   Maybe you want to be a pilot – but your eyesight is too weak. Maybe you want to be married – but you’re still single. Maybe you want to go to uni – but you can’t afford it. Maybe you want to be a six foot blonde with a golden tan.  But you’re an short brunette and you burn in the sun.   Maybe you want to be a gnu with green eyebrows. …Read More

I Can’t Decide

By July 9, 2015 Blog

Things that make me anxious: Wasps. Small-talk. Admin. Deadlines. Phone-calls from numbers I don’t recognise, (Why are you calling me? Has somebody died?) And DECISION-MAKING. Given that each day is made up of choices, this can be a problem. Big ones (relationships, life choices, money etc).  But small ones too. Blue socks or green? Muesli or Weetabix? Ordering a coffee: Barista: HihowareyoutodaywhatcanIgetyou? E: Oh – hi. Fine, I think. Actually I’m knackered. You? Great.  Er – what did you ask me again? …Read More

Not Good Enough: Hurrah!

By June 8, 2015 Blog

Thank God for friends. Chatting today, we shared our mutual shortcomings in the sphere of work/wifeliness/parenting/breathing.  Finally, we came to the conclusion that ‘good enough is – well, good enough.‘ You don’t have to be a wonder worker to justify your existence. You don’t need a spotless home to be worthwhile. The odd turkey twizzler will not kill your toddler. Give your best and that’s all anyone can ask. You’re good enough, just as you are. Sounds lovely, doesn’t it?  Liberating. Much better …Read More

Unconditional

By May 18, 2015 Blog

I’ve been talking to some friends about love. One who’s been single for many years, is now in a relationship. The other, who’s been childless for many years, has just had a wee boy. Both are rejoicing.  But both say this: ‘It’s wonderful – but it doesn’t fix you.’   The longed-for family.  The partner you’ve always dreamed of. When it comes to love, this is the best that the world can offer. And it’s wonderful – but it doesn’t …Read More

Not Enough

By March 9, 2015 Blog

Today I planned to write a blog. I planned to do some washing. I planned to read the Bible and have a good pray. I planned to phone a friend I haven’t spoken to in a long time.   I planned to send an (overdue) birthday card I planned to pay the bills and phone the dentist and reply to email and wash my hair and de-flea the cats and buy milk and take the recycling. … Mondays can be overwhelming – and …Read More

Myth and Reality

By February 23, 2015 Blog

The myth of depression: I’m not sick, just lazy.  I am weak and sad and pathetic. This is all my fault. People would be better off without me.  I’m a burden and a waste of space.  I don’t feel like God’s there – so either He isn’t, or He doesn’t want me. I’m a terrible Christian and a terrible person. Nothing will ever change. No-one understands. The reality of depression: I have a sickness called depression. I feel weak and …Read More