Project Justify-Me

By March 10, 2017 Blog

Guest post from Glen… Tuesday night, 11:30pm. After 5 hours at A&E, Emma and I were putting a screaming toddler to bed. The doorbell went. “Who could that be?” asked Emma. Somehow I knew. Clarity pierced through the cloud of tiredness, set-upon-ness, and noble sufferer-ness that I’d been nurturing all evening. Suddenly I realised I was guilty – of a crime that, without the doorbell, I’d have blithely ignored. But with the bell came instant conviction. And rest. You see, …Read More

Not Enough

By March 9, 2015 Blog

Today I planned to write a blog. I planned to do some washing. I planned to read the Bible and have a good pray. I planned to phone a friend I haven’t spoken to in a long time.   I planned to send an (overdue) birthday card I planned to pay the bills and phone the dentist and reply to email and wash my hair and de-flea the cats and buy milk and take the recycling. … Mondays can be overwhelming – and …Read More

Meaningless Motivations

By December 1, 2014 Blog

There have got to be better ways of motivating yourself than wall hangings and Disney quotes. Most of ’em make me want to trample on fairy wings. Plus, they don’t make sense. I give you; Be Bold.  Be Brave.  Be You. I can do the third one. But I don’t see how it’s linked to the first two. You’re the One who Can Fill The World with Sunshine. On a typical morning, I struggle to fill my coffee cup. Choose A Life Less Ordinary.  1.I like …Read More

Alternatives

By August 12, 2014 Blog

It’s ok to feel overwhelmed. But before you listen to lies or reach for old habits, try some of these: 1. pray 2. stop and breathe 3. read the Bible or listen to it read to you 4. scribble on sheets of paper. 5. pray for someone else 6. write a list of things that worry you. Pray them through, then bin them 7. be with other people. 8. watch your favourite TV show. 9. post on web boards or try answering other people’s posts. 10. phone …Read More

Two Kinds of Fast

By March 11, 2014 Blog

Lent is traditionally the season of abstinence.  We ask each other, ‘what are you giving up?’ But the real question is this: ‘who are you giving it up for?’   I say this as someone who’s very good at self-will and saying ‘no’. But I’m learning there’s a world of difference between fasting for the Lord and fasting for yourself.   Both look religious, but are centered round very different gods. One is Jesus.  One is me. If you’re not …Read More

You Talkin’ To Me?

By January 19, 2014 Blog

Late for church today (again).  Couple of reasons: 1. sickness as the ivf drugs start leaving my system. 2. general rubbishness (I’m late every week). 3. baby/family squishiness.  4. fear of going Inappropriately Crazy.  (I’M SAD SO I NEED YOU ALL TO STOP SINGING).  I didn’t, (tho I didn’t sing either). And one of these days I’m gonna! Maybe… Thing is, however bad it gets, there’s rarely a time when church isn’t right. And by ‘right’ I don’t mean “horrible …Read More

Want Less

By November 12, 2013 Blog

I want an iPhone; I need conversation I want to be perfect; I need to be real I want beauty; I need to see His I want a penthouse; I need an open home I want to be Jane Austen,  Bridget Jones or Rhianna.  I need to be me and to know that’s enough . I want to change the world; I need to be changed myself I want a new body; I need to love the one I’ve got …Read More

Coming Soon

By September 19, 2013 Blog

Back to the baby doc today. We’re reviewing  Cycle 2: What Went Wrong, (tagline: ‘The Final Chapter?’) Guest-stars: Mad scientist consultant.  His desperate, inexorable search for progress has blunted his social skills and made him crazy with power. Hickster Fundamentalist Christians. Comedy couple – reared by dingos in the outback/potato farmers in Peat bog land. Him: Nice Vicar who Finishes Last.  Her:  Feisty Irish Rose Nettle with  Big Gob. Nurse with Heart of Gold (winces/emits spontaneous clucking noises when Mad Scientist …Read More

Baby Hunger

By May 7, 2013 Blog

Glen and I are hoping to start IVF fairly soon.  I say hoping, because it’s been a long, long process and I’m utterly convinced I will do something to stuff it up.  That probably sounds stupid as, at this stage, there’s not much I can do except take the hormones, try not to go (even more) bonkers, pray and wait. But – I have Eating Disorder Guilt, I don’t think I’m an adult let alone a Woman and frankly, after …Read More

Forget God, I Got Ironing

By March 31, 2013 Blog

Today is important.  But not for the reason you think. Not because death has been defeated. Not because  Christ has burst forth from the grave and reigns with His Father over all creation. Not because He leads His people into life and freedom.   No.   Let me tell you why today is important: it’s important because we have guests tomorrow and I have to get things ready.   Beds to make. A roast to cook. Washing to dry. A …Read More