Living by Doubt

By July 20, 2017 Blog

Don’t listen to yourself. You are not the best judge of how you’re doing.  In fact, it’s most likely that you are the worst. I think, ‘I’m doing fine,” when I’m not.  I believe that I’m “hopeless and rubbish,” when I’m loved and chosen by God and filled by his Holy Spirit. I assume that, “I’ll never succeed so I’d better give up…” when true glory isn’t winning, but stepping out and stumbling on. There are a thousand reasons I …Read More

To keep the faith, doubt your doubt

By December 14, 2016 Blog

One of the hardest things about doubt is admitting it’s there. Like inviting a flood; if I don’t believe this, then what about this and this and this?  Does God hear my prayers? Does He care?  Is He even there? It’s all well and good if you’re a self-proclaimed atheist.  In this situation, the only way is up.  But what if you’re the leader of a home group?  What if you teach the children Sunday school? What if you’re employed …Read More

Getting Through

By September 7, 2014 Blog

Most Christians have wobbles of faith. But most Christians think other Christians don’t. For one thing, it’s not something we tend to ask about: (though funnily enough I do ask about your dog /family /house /job/ plumbing).  It feels personal – like enquiring about someone’s toilet habits.   If I ask about your relationship with Jesus; you might ask about mine.  And I’m not sure we want to go there.  Plus, you might think I’m weird, just for bringing it up.  So we have an unspoken agreement …Read More

Another Break-In

By June 24, 2013 Blog

Recently I’ve had the guest from hell.  Bloke by the name of Doubt. Big and mean and smells of smoke. Can’t keep his hands to himself, even though he knows I’m married. ‘You don’t belong with that Husband’ he says.  ‘You’re junk, like me’. I tell him where to go.  But even when I board up the doors, he seeks me out and breaks them down. At night I can hear him – scratching. Sometimes he retreats: but he rarely …Read More