A sword for the scared

By October 10, 2017 Blog

My default setting is ‘fear,’ not ‘faith.’ How’s my friend’s baby doing? Will she recover; and what can I do? Why did God let this happen?  Will I be able to meet up with Y; and if so, what will I say? Why is the car making that noise? Is that a dodgy mole on my leg? What will happen to my family if I get sick? On and on it goes; and the list gets longer the more I …Read More

Battle Ready

By August 2, 2017 Blog

I’m nervous. There’s a big event approaching and I don’t feel up to it.  I’ve prepped and I’ve packed.  But as the minutes tick down, I pull out the big guns. A slash of lipstick. A mask of foundation. Concealer to hide my weakness. A cloak of expensive perfume. Painted talons and whitened fangs. Warpaint. And Now I’m ready. What’s your armour? What helps you, when you know you’re not enough? Perhaps it’s food. A wall between you and your …Read More

Talking back to Anxiety

By May 3, 2017 Blog

I don’t know what the future holds. Sometimes I think of what might happen and I panic. How will I cope?  Who will care for those I love? But my heart steadies as I remember these words: “The Lord is my light and my salvation—whom shall I fear?  The Lord is the stronghold of my life—of whom shall I be afraid?” Psalm 27:1 If I can only get through this.  If I just take charge of this. If I can change this. If I get this. On and …Read More

Forked Tongue

By February 15, 2017 Blog

Satan whispers, “Don’t worry about that sin, that pattern, that temptation. It’s no big deal.’ Then when you fall for it, he shouts, “You’ve blown it! What a wretch you are! God won’t want to hear from you now, not for another fortnight at least. Not till you’ve made it all better.” But you can’t make it better. And the whispers start again. … ‘Stuck eh? Well what do you expect? Sin is in your genes – unavoidable, no matter how …Read More

This Lord

By January 17, 2017 Blog

When life is overwhelming, instead of running to Jesus, I sometimes battle on, alone.   I know what the Bible says…but what I need is busyness.  I’m building a wall against chaos, and every task is another brick. What are you facing at the moment?  What is it that feels “too much?” A stressful job – or no job.  Screaming children – or no children.   Your health.  Your bank balance.  YOU.  Too tired to keep going; too weak to stop. As Christians, if we feel overwhelmed, …Read More

Fearless

By October 31, 2016 Blog

Today, on Halloween, we celebrate “things that go bump in the night.” If you’re like me, though, every day is a battle with fears. I’ve been anxious since I can remember. As a child, I thought it was how everyone felt. I thought that everyone lay awake at night, gripped with a sick cold fear, tugging at the corners. A whisper that got louder as the lights got dimmer, “There’s a bad thing about to happen and it’s going to get you …Read More

A Prayer for Monday

By April 10, 2016 Blog

Dear God It’s the start of a new week. And I don’t know how to do it. I feel scattered; pushed and pulled in many different directions. I take my eyes off you and suddenly, I’m stuck. I’m frightened by the decisions that need to be made; and ones that are out of my hands. by the things I can’t see.  And the demands I can’t meet. I’m overwhelmed By lists and by longings. By pain and by pride. It’s dark in here. I build walls to keep myself …Read More

Stuck?

By October 19, 2015 Blog

1. sometimes you’ll feel angry or sad or overwhelmed or unsafe or crazy.  These feelings are not the truth. They are feelings and they will pass. 2. your circumstances will change. Suffering has a ‘used by’ date. Only Jesus’ future is forever. There is hope. You will feel better. 3. when everyday tasks feel overwhelming, breathe and remind yourself to go a step at a time.  Try to keep to routines; but don’t beat yourself up when you can’t. 4. you may feel alone …Read More

Rest for the Rabbit-hearts

By April 28, 2015 Blog

I love that Jesus tells us to cast our cares on Him.  The difficult part is letting them go. I’m good at anxiety.  I can’t keep our plants alive – but I can blow the tiniest flicker of worry into a furnace. Big ones, (health, wanting my family to know Jesus, scary letters, bills, The Future) and little ones (did I really say that? must remember to phone X…what’s that smell of burning?) …they gang up and tackle me when I least expect …Read More

What Gives Me The Fear

By December 28, 2014 Blog

1. giving birth and having responsibility for/screwing up another human being. 2. depression. 3. letting people down. 4. exposure. 5. January. 6. unconsciously committing The Unforgivable Sin. (This one, not so much since chatting it through with Glen and others.  But still…) 7. eating disorders. 8. seeing people I love hurting and not being able to make it better. 9. having too much or having too little. 10. wasps. 11. being laughed at. 12. being taken seriously. 13. clowns. 14. expectations (other people’s and …Read More