No Choices, Only Grace

By February 15, 2016 Blog

Guest post from Glen: How do you capture the grief of losing a five year old child? Ryan and Amy Green, a Christian couple from Colorado, made a game about it “That Dragon, Cancer“, which people are calling “the most profound videogame ever.” Since Emma showed it to me, I can’t stop thinking about it. It did not begin life as a memorial. The game was birthed while hopes were high for Joel’s healing. He had been diagnosed with brain cancer …Read More

God in the Laundry

By January 28, 2016 Blog

God uses us where we are. I believe this for others.  The ways they look after their partners and their families.  The impact they make in their work and community. Gosh, I think, God is really using you. Then I look at myself.  And I’m not so sure. Today, I did not start my own business. I didn’t redecorate the front room.  I didn’t save a life or give blood.  I didn’t close a deal. I didn’t bring aid to refugees. …Read More

Wrongful Conviction

By January 25, 2016 Blog

The accuser versus the Comforter;   One condemns, the other convicts. One paralyses, the other empowers. One leads to self-hatred, the other to Jesus. One is soft and cruel, the other is gentle but firm. One says look to yourself, the other says look to Him. One says “you can’t make it better – so give up and despair.” The other says “you can’t make it better – and this is your hope.” One says “everything is bad and you cannot escape.” The other …Read More

Yes He Can

By January 22, 2016 Blog

I can’t do it. That thing. The habit I need to break. The phone call I keep putting off. The book I want to write. The truth I need to face. I can’t clean the oven. I can’t give up the smokes. I can’t take charge of my finances. I can’t care for my elderly parents. I can’t love my difficult child.  I can’t get out of bed. I can’t say it’s over.  I can’t give it another chance.   I can’t do it …Read More

True Detective

By November 16, 2015 Blog

I’ve always loved detective dramas – but not just for the tweed. You start with lots of questions. (Why is the heiress so secretive? Who took the candlesticks? What caused the fire in the library?) Frankly, it’s a bit of mess. So, you call in an expert.  Poirot, Marple or Morse. Then, you watch them work out the answers. Conflicts are resolved, wounds are healed and patterns emerge from chaos. A confession and a solution – all in 60 minutes.   That’s the …Read More

Start Again

By August 13, 2015 Blog

On bad days, my version of Christian discipleship is not the official one. It’s a ledger with four columns. The first one says, ‘how am I feeling?’ (scored from 1 (atrocious/shouldn’t have been born) to 10 (So good it HURTS) The second one asks, ‘what am I worth?’ (based on answer to no 1) The third one says ‘what did I do to deserve this score?’ And the fourth one says, ‘how can I make it better?’ It might sound complicated, but it’s comes very naturally.  Let …Read More

It’s Not Supposed To Feel Like This

By August 4, 2015 Blog

When I became a Christian, I expected untrammelled blessings and a overwhelming sense of joy. This was not my experience. Meeting Jesus was like inviting in a JCB truck, not a friendly maiden aunt. He saved my life, but He turned it upside-down too. Instead of being easier and simpler, life became harder and more complicated. I knew God as my Father and I joined the church – but for the first time I was different to my family. I started reading the Bible – but it wasn’t like …Read More

The Bottom Line

By April 21, 2015 Blog

Having a baby reveals depths you never expected. New lows of grumpiness and sleep deprivation.  But also –  great heights. For one thing, I never realised how funny I really am. I’m a comedy genius. My daughter proves it. Pick up a spoon and she roars with appreciation. Flush the toilet and she cackles.  I’ve had to retire the monkey dance because the excitement was making her choke. And the admiration is mutual.  Her yawns are both colourful and fulsome.  She burps unicorns and her smiles are sparkles. She can’t yet talk, …Read More

Yes! No! Maybe

By April 8, 2015 Blog

I’d like the world to be more definite. Clarity on life’s big issues. Black  or white. Right or wrong. Christian or Not Christian. Baptism. Breast feeding. Beards. Boxed Sets. Tell me what to think and I can keep my brain in neutral. YES or NO. Anything but ‘maybe.’ ‘Maybe’ is like boot camp for the brain.  Hard graft, early starts and endless sweaty questions that often take you back where you started. Muddied, messy middle ground. Well, I don’t like mess. I don’t want to have to work …Read More

40 Per Cent Living

By February 19, 2015 Blog

Is all of the Bible really for me? Some days, (especially when I’m stressed), it feels more like 40 per cent. 40 per cent that’s practical and real, a direct line between what God says and what Emma needs to do. 40 per cent that’s appropriate to daily life; the grocery shop and feeding the cats. 40 per cent that works in 21st century Eastbourne, not 1st century Palestine. 40 per cent that’s for a justgettingthrough believer, not a solid-gold saint. What makes up the …Read More