True Detective

By November 16, 2015 Blog

I’ve always loved detective dramas – but not just for the tweed. You start with lots of questions. (Why is the heiress so secretive? Who took the candlesticks? What caused the fire in the library?) Frankly, it’s a bit of mess. So, you call in an expert.  Poirot, Marple or Morse. Then, you watch them work out the answers. Conflicts are resolved, wounds are healed and patterns emerge from chaos. A confession and a solution – all in 60 minutes.   That’s the …Read More

Start Again

By August 13, 2015 Blog

On bad days, my version of Christian discipleship is not the official one. It’s a ledger with four columns. The first one says, ‘how am I feeling?’ (scored from 1 (atrocious/shouldn’t have been born) to 10 (So good it HURTS) The second one asks, ‘what am I worth?’ (based on answer to no 1) The third one says ‘what did I do to deserve this score?’ And the fourth one says, ‘how can I make it better?’ It might sound complicated, but it’s comes very naturally.  Let …Read More

It’s Not Supposed To Feel Like This

By August 4, 2015 Blog

When I became a Christian, I expected untrammelled blessings and a overwhelming sense of joy. This was not my experience. Meeting Jesus was like inviting in a JCB truck, not a friendly maiden aunt. He saved my life, but He turned it upside-down too. Instead of being easier and simpler, life became harder and more complicated. I knew God as my Father and I joined the church – but for the first time I was different to my family. I started reading the Bible – but it wasn’t like …Read More

The Bottom Line

By April 21, 2015 Blog

Having a baby reveals depths you never expected. New lows of grumpiness and sleep deprivation.  But also –  great heights. For one thing, I never realised how funny I really am. I’m a comedy genius. My daughter proves it. Pick up a spoon and she roars with appreciation. Flush the toilet and she cackles.  I’ve had to retire the monkey dance because the excitement was making her choke. And the admiration is mutual.  Her yawns are both colourful and fulsome.  She burps unicorns and her smiles are sparkles. She can’t yet talk, …Read More

Yes! No! Maybe

By April 8, 2015 Blog

I’d like the world to be more definite. Clarity on life’s big issues. Black  or white. Right or wrong. Christian or Not Christian. Baptism. Breast feeding. Beards. Boxed Sets. Tell me what to think and I can keep my brain in neutral. YES or NO. Anything but ‘maybe.’ ‘Maybe’ is like boot camp for the brain.  Hard graft, early starts and endless sweaty questions that often take you back where you started. Muddied, messy middle ground. Well, I don’t like mess. I don’t want to have to work …Read More

40 Per Cent Living

By February 19, 2015 Blog

Is all of the Bible really for me? Some days, (especially when I’m stressed), it feels more like 40 per cent. 40 per cent that’s practical and real, a direct line between what God says and what Emma needs to do. 40 per cent that’s appropriate to daily life; the grocery shop and feeding the cats. 40 per cent that works in 21st century Eastbourne, not 1st century Palestine. 40 per cent that’s for a justgettingthrough believer, not a solid-gold saint. What makes up the …Read More

Choose Your Own Adventure – or Live Out His

By February 10, 2015 Blog

If, like me, you’re a child of the 80’s, you may remember the literary phenomenon that was “choose your own adventure.” If not, here’s an introduction: “You and your trusty dog, Marzipan, have travelled to the planet Zorg.  Your spaceship has landed in a large crater.  To the north is a field filled with a strange green gas.  To the south is a cave, marked with a large ‘Keep Off’ sign. To the east is a castle guarded by giant monkeys. If …Read More

Free To Be

By December 2, 2014 Blog

Here’s a question. Do you feel more free as as Christian than you did as a non-Christian? Do you feel more free than your non-Christian friends? Half of me shouts ‘Yes! Of COURSE! Jesus has taken all my shame and my mess.  He’s nailed it to the cross.  In return, He’s given me His goodness – and Himself.  There are times – especially when I’m singing, or praying or with other believers, when I can feel it, right down to …Read More

Hold On

By November 24, 2014 Blog

There are lots of things we might be tempted to give up on: looking for a job a (really boring but worthwhile) book reconciliation with someone who’s hurt us or whom we’ve hurt a work project – like setting up a business a personal project – getting fit or building a shed a family relationship a marriage ourselves It’s hard to hope when that hope is repeatedly dashed.  It’s hard to try when you’re scared of failure.  It’s hard to reach out for fear …Read More

Ask Me Why

By October 24, 2014 Blog

We follow a suffering Saviour, which means that we too, must carry our cross. But in the midst of the hardship and the endurance, there is a deep, deep joy.  And I forget this. Ask me why I’m stressed.  Ask me why I’m struggling.  Ask me what I’m missing, what’s gone wrong, what I need. I’ll tell you, even if you don’t. But ask me why I have hope; and the words often dry up. … So I ask myself.  Who …Read More