A sword for the scared

By October 10, 2017 Blog

My default setting is ‘fear,’ not ‘faith.’ How’s my friend’s baby doing? Will she recover; and what can I do? Why did God let this happen?  Will I be able to meet up with Y; and if so, what will I say? Why is the car making that noise? Is that a dodgy mole on my leg? What will happen to my family if I get sick? On and on it goes; and the list gets longer the more I …Read More

The Antidote to Shame

By June 27, 2017 Blog

In Hebrew, the word for ‘shame’ goes beyond feeling embarrassed for yourself.  It’s about hoping in something foolish; (false gods are sometimes called “shame”). It’s the  anguish you feel when both you and the things in which you have trusted, are exposed. Idols are “things of shame” – false sources of confidence and identity. But their shame is contagious – they make us shameful too! Here’s the cycle: We go to shameful things to feel OK. They make us feel even more shameful, so …Read More

Why it’s gonna be okay

By May 29, 2017 Blog

You can’t fix the past – and you don’t need to. Redemption means that everything, even your worst, your most shameful moments, are covered. They are being woven into something beautiful. You can’t live in the future – and you wouldn’t want to. Even the future you desperately want – the one you dare not name because it’s too painful to open your heart to hope; even that would be no good for you right now. The future needs to …Read More

Not for Nothing

By January 30, 2017 Blog

I want you to know that I see you. Not just the bright smile you share with strangers. Not just the bent shoulders, picking up toys.   Not just the coper, who gets it all done. Not just the shiny bits; the triumphs and successes. Not just the qualifications or the clipboard or desk.   I see when you stumble I see when you sleep I see when you fall and I see when you weep.   I see it all.  And I see all of …Read More

Surviving Coffee Time

By February 21, 2016 Blog

I love church.  And I love coffee. But post-church coffee? Terrifying. It’s not the people.  Individually, they are LOVELY.  But there’s something about a group. In a small area.  Trying to talk to one another at once. Something that makes me want to stuff my fingers in my ears and lie down in a darkened room.  On an island. In space. You’re trying to connect deeply/make small talk but Billy is practising on the drums and you can’t remember that lady’s name even though you’ve …Read More

Bad things are not good.

By January 12, 2016 Blog

When bad things happen to you or the people you love, how do you try to comfort them? “It’s not so bad?” “It’ll all work out for the best?” “Things could be worse.  I heard of one guy who…” “Don’t waste time worrying about it.”   If you’re a Christian, maybe you say this: “God’s in charge so He must have caused/wanted this.” “God has made it happen for a reason, even if we can’t see it.” “God doesn’t want …Read More

Stuck?

By October 19, 2015 Blog

1. sometimes you’ll feel angry or sad or overwhelmed or unsafe or crazy.  These feelings are not the truth. They are feelings and they will pass. 2. your circumstances will change. Suffering has a ‘used by’ date. Only Jesus’ future is forever. There is hope. You will feel better. 3. when everyday tasks feel overwhelming, breathe and remind yourself to go a step at a time.  Try to keep to routines; but don’t beat yourself up when you can’t. 4. you may feel alone …Read More

Losing the Key

By September 25, 2015 Blog

Last night I was giving my testimony. It was a 6 hour journey to our venue and the baby was screaming. Glen and I argued in the car. I hadn’t looked at my notes, we were running late and when we arrived, the hotel couldn’t find our booking. I felt tired and flat and grumpy and useless. It seemed impossible that God could use me in any way. I hadn’t had the right build-up. My preparations had been thrown out, …Read More

First Things First

By September 16, 2015 Blog

This morning was our women’s bible study group. I woke up with a stinking headache and a fractious baby. It was pouring with rain, Ruby was screaming, the house was a tip and my phone was flashing reminders for a deadline I’m struggling to meet. I felt like climbing back into bed and pulling the curtains.  I felt like I should chip the spilt Weetabix off the floor and get the house into order.  I felt like I needed to work whilst Ruby slept. …Read More

How to Keep Going

By September 7, 2015 Blog

1. It’s not about having faith in yourself or a general sense that things will work out ok. It’s about a concrete faith in the living Lord Jesus and the rock-solid promise that He will finish what He has started. 2. Having this faith does not mean you always feel it. You can love and trust the Lord but still be mired in deep depression. You can cling to His promises and still have doubts. What you feel is NOT …Read More