Do You Even KNOW Me?

By January 31, 2012 identity

Been reading about a website where you go to sell gifts from (ex) loved ones.  No,  don’t get all judgemental on me.  We’ve all been there – cooing fondly over pressies that seemed so cute in the fog of romance, but quickly turn to tack in the cold light of break-up.  A mountain of mugs, mix tapes, soap-on-a-ropes and Christmas jumpers. ..liberated online to continue their happy cycle of misery and guilt.  It’s the circle of life my friends and …Read More

Fight the Fear

By January 30, 2012 Blog

I don’t know about you, but I’m a natural Eeyore. My glass is often half-empty – even when there’s plenty of drinking left. Tiggers – (like my husband), leave me dizzy and bewildered.  All that joy and bounce – there’s simply no need. Yet all too often, I’ll use my natural disposition as an excuse: justification for acting lumpy.   The thoughts go like this: I’m a melancholy person – not just a misery-guts.  I’m over-burdened: not over-committed.  I’m depressed, …Read More

Baby Blues

By January 27, 2012 Uncategorized

I’ve just found out that Another friend is pregnant.  (Is there anyone left?!) I’m genuinely pleased for her – it hasn’t been an easy process and she and her hubby will be brilliant parents.  Plus, having gone through that horrible yearning, it’s wonderful to see an end in sight for people I care about. But it’s painful too because I want that to be me – I want to be yelping with delight over the right blue line too! I’m …Read More

Boring Bible?

By January 26, 2012 Blog

1. ‘Go up you bald head’ (closely followed by sound of munching bear.  Who’s laughing now, sonny?) 2.Samson killing 1000 men with a donkey’s jawbone. As you do. 3. Jezebel painting her face before the dogs eat her. 4.Elijah picking up his skirt and then casually outrunning a chariot. 5. Mary and Joseph losing Jesus for a DAY before realising he’d gone. 6. The disciples: sort of like Bert and Ernie but slower on the uptake. 7. Noah’s ark.  Forget …Read More

Baby Steps

By January 25, 2012 Blog

I was reading an interview yesterday with Susan Boyle, (the singer who won X Factor and was catapulted from ordinary life to worldwide celebrity).  Understandably, Boyle struggled to cope with this transition and her mental health was gleefully discussed and dissected in the media. But more than the time she spent in therapy, I was struck by a phrase she’d learned from her mum: and one that I learned from mine too. ‘Baby steps’. ‘Baby steps’ means a number of …Read More

HE Can Do It

By January 24, 2012 Uncategorized

Woke up this morning feeling panicked. Then I read this, from Spurgeon: He will keep the feet of his saints. (1 Samuel 2:9) The way is slippery and our feet are feeble, but the Lord will keep our feet. If we give ourselves up by obedient faith to be His holy ones, He will Himself be our guardian. Not only will He charge His angels to keep us, but He Himself will preserve our goings. He will keep our feet …Read More

Dangerous Drifting

By January 23, 2012 Blog, identity

Recently I’ve been feeling somewhat flat. I’ve been waking up with a vague sense of discontent, surreptitiously feeding it and then feeling sorry for myself and wondering why it’s still hanging around. I have, my friends, been coasting.  Treading the water of life and persuading myself I’ll be floating in the same place a few weeks later. Except that it doesn’t work quite like that.  When it comes to my relationship with Jesus, (perhaps as with all relationships), I’m either …Read More

Cheap date

By January 21, 2012 Blog

Been reading today about a growing trend for twenty-somethings who are fed up with being set up. Parents and friends can be well meaning, but sometimes their efforts ‘on your behalf’ may leave you wanting to pull out your own eyes and emigrate.  (‘Ooooh – is that the door? Billy-bob – what a surprise! Have you met my single daughter, Mary-ann?  I’ll just pop some Barry White on the stereo and you two can get to know each other…’) I’m …Read More

Getting out of a Rut

By January 19, 2012 Blog

It’s been a dumpling of a week: one of those swampy, lumpy January bogs that feels like swimming through porridge. Things to do, but no poop for doing ’em. A series of ever-decreasing circles: grey routines and baggy pants. But that’s quite enough wallowing.  Truth be told, my little rut’s gotten too cosy – time to strap on a rocket and blast out! Here’s The Plan: 1. get the Bible open.  So far I’ve been dipping my toe in a …Read More

Miraculous Recovery?

By January 18, 2012 Blog

I had a good question recently from someone who asked if recovery meant that God simply zapped me better… My initial response to say ‘HA! If only..’  But there’s more to it than that. For one thing,  I’m still in recovery.   Along with many ex-anorexics, I struggle with binge-eating: this beats starving myself, but it’s still looking to food for comfort. I no longer obsess about weight/calories …  but I still have body hang-ups.  Even now, years since I …Read More