Stand back, I’m BUSY

I spend a lot of time moaning about being busy. There just aren’t enough hours in the day, I’ve got deadlines, I’m stressed, blahdeeblahdeeblah.

Just one wee problem: most of my busyness is actually a choice. No-one is standing over me with a big stick saying ‘c’mon now Emma, hop to it’.  On some level, I want to be busy – and I make decisions that make sure I am.

There are different reasons for this.

1. I want to feel like I’m important.  And important people are  Busy.  (NB: A short-cut to this is also to look grumpy: Try it – sit at your desk and look miserable: everyone will assume that you are working).

2. When I have things to do, I fuss.  And instead of getting on with it  I create what Glen calls ‘busy work’.  These are non-essential tasks which suddenly demand Immediate Attention.

Example: we have people coming over for dinner. I’m nervous – they’re due in half an hour and (after spending the last hour pasting on false eyelashes), I’m now eyeballing a piece of mouldy cheese and a mushroom.  A normal human would cut their losses, put a pizza in the oven and stick out some olives.  Not me. I decide that this is the moment to go shopping and experiment with corned beef. When it all goes horribly wrong, I blame my ‘demanding’ guests, Jamie Oliver, the oven and the Bible for telling me to practise hospitality.

But I think the biggest reason for being busy is this:

3. I’m terrified of being still.  Of what will happen when I stop filling my mind with noise and stuff.  Of the real worries and fears and thoughts that bubble underneath.

So what’s the answer? Suck it up? Pretend everything is fine or lie down under my worries? Or something else?

‘This is what the LORD says: “Stand at the crossroads and look; ask for the ancient paths, ask where the good way is, and walk in it, and you will find rest for your souls”. (Jeremiah 6:16)

Here’s the Bible’s answer to restlessness:

stand

look

ask

walk.

But here’s how I live:

run

run

run

retreat.

It scares me to death to think about standing, being still before the Lord. Why? Because when I stop, I think. I do look – but in completely the wrong place.  I look to my feelings and my circumstances and my fears.  I get overwhelmed.  And then I either run or I retreat.

But this verse reminds me of the necessity of stopping.  Of standing.  And of looking – not at myself, but to Christ.

It doesn’t tell me to stuff or bury my feelings – but neither do I need to fix them or fix myself. Instead I’m reminded to take them to Jesus.  Then to ask Him to help me and to lead me. And finally – finally, to walk.  Not run – walk.  With my hand in His, neither looking back or too far forwards.

 

7 thoughts on “Stand back, I’m BUSY

  1. I do exactly the same thing, keep busy enough so I don’t have time to consider things that really need to be addressed. Jeremiah gives great advice, thanks for sharing!

  2. I so love your analysis of that Jeremiah verse,and that reminder that the Christian life is about walking hand in hand with God. Brilliant stuff.

  3. Thanks for your encouragements ladies – and reminding me I’m not just taking my own little busy pills..

  4. Have been mulling on these thoughts since last week – especially now that I’m back to real life and definately think my inability to be still with just my thoughts is me trying to ‘escape the curse’ – rather than loving the freedom of my salvation (loved that Pauls atonement talk followed that convo)

  5. I know what you mean. For me, I’ve been chewing over fearing God and not men..but I think the week’s like a camel hump, food for thought for many months to come!

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