Pregnancy and Prayer

By July 15, 2013 Blog

It occurs to me that prayer feels a bit like trying to get pregnant. Bear with me here. I don’t mean real prayer, to the God of the Bible.  I mean my muddled view of it.  In the quest for a baby, I have a number of strategies.  Excluding the obvious, these include: 1. Reading lots of ‘how-to’ books Not all ‘how-to’ books are crazy.  But it’s amazing what you’ll I’ll listen to when desperate. Things you wouldn’t even consider were …Read More

Een Nieuwe Naam

By July 12, 2013 Blog

Thanks to Ark Media in the Netherlands, A New Name is now in Dutch! Put it in your “winkelwagen” here. Share…FacebookTwitterTumblrPinterestGoogle+StumbleUponDiggemail

Comparing Caring

By July 11, 2013 Blog

What a difference a day makes. Yesterday we met up with another Christian couple for a picnic in the park. Today I went to see the infertility counsellor (we were offered some free sessions with our clinic). On both days we covered the same topics: wanting children, work-life balance, priorities, faith, the meaning of rest. But they were very different experiences. Yesterday I came home feeling refreshed and thankful.  I left the counsellor today feeling like I’d been hit by a …Read More

Please Before Thank-You

By July 10, 2013 Blog

Something I’m really good at is asking for stuff. It’s a gift I’ve honed with practice, but frankly I was born with it.  Whatever way you look at it, ‘gimme’ slips off the tongue a lot easier than ‘thank-you’. One of my favourite verses is from Phil 4:6: ‘Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, present your requests to God’. Except that this isn’t the verse.  Without fail, there’s a bit that I forget …Read More

Give It Me

By July 9, 2013 Blog

It’s easy to ricochet between extremes.  If I get X, my life means something.  Without it, I’m junk. A friend longs to meet someone special and settle down.  Without a partner, she’s convinced she’s strange and unlovable. If she could just meet someone right – things would fall into place.  She’d be validated and finally she’d fit. Another measures her value against her weight. Since having a family, she can’t fit into her old clothes and she feels frumpy and …Read More

Even When It’s Bad, It’s Good

By July 8, 2013 Blog

I don’t know what your Monday looks like.  I don’t know how your week is shaped; or what you feel about the month ahead. Using my mystical powers, I predict there will be challenges.  Personal, professional, relational, financial. Some will be manageable.  Others seem insurmountable. Some will sneak up from behind; and some have been scheduled in advance. But whatever is coming: sickness, sadness, addiction, loss – here’s what we can count on. ‘I am the Lord your God.  I …Read More

Pity The Fool (Who Pities Herself)

By July 5, 2013 Blog

Thanks for your kindness, wisdom and patience with me this week. It’s hard for you folks to be on the receiving end of a tearful rant, but your perspectives and prayers have been a massive help. And I’m thankful for challenges as well as reassurance.   From Kinga: I know it’s hard. But we need to accept that not everything will happen as we wish. I always wanted at least 3 kids. No husband even. No close family almost at …Read More


By July 4, 2013 Blog

We went for a counselling session today, (part of the failed ivf package) and the word I came up with was ‘useless’. Not the counsellor – she was very nice. – Me.  I wasn’t pregnant a month ago and I’m not pregnant now. Nothing terrible has happened. Nothing dramatic has changed.But it’s like the switch marked ‘Emma’ has flicked and I can’t get it back on. Things to do.  But I can’t quite reach. A whisper that crashes like a …Read More

Anchor Man

By July 3, 2013 Blog

I always write my blog posts to myself first.  And this is no exception. 1. Friends are wonderful, whatever their experience.  But there’s something in talking to someone who has experienced the same struggle, that brings special comfort. They get it – and they’re still here. Before everyone else; this is true of Jesus. Whatever you’re going through.  Depression, singleness, addiction, bereavement, joblessness, infertility.  He has walked this path before you. Just before He goes to the Cross, he doesn’t …Read More