If you start swearing uncontrollably – filthy language you’d never have dreamed of using.
If you have problems controlling your behaviour: perhaps mania, racking up debts on items you’ll never use.
If you deliberately put yourself in positions where you can be harmed. Promiscuity. Risk-taking. Things that look like utter madness to those who care for you: yet feel impossible to resist.
If you’re depressed and suicidal. You know the gospel – but you’re utterly despairing and you just can’t hope.
If you’re obsessed by disturbing thoughts you can’t control. Fears about harming those you love: dark thoughts about damnation, that need endless rituals to keep them in check.
At these points, does Jesus let go of your hand? Is there a line you cross, where He says ‘let them go’?
You’re not saved by your works: and you’re not condemned by them either.
If you were – what would you say about the dementia patient who loses their grip in their final years? Or the victim of severe head injuries who can no longer remember anything of Christ? Or the severely handicapped who can never articulate faith the way the rest of us can?
Thank God our Christian lives are about His grip of us, not our grip of Him.
Jesus has hold of us at our worst. And at our worst, He loves us.