I woke up with a stinking headache and a fractious baby.
It was pouring with rain, Ruby was screaming, the house was a tip and my phone was flashing reminders for a deadline I’m struggling to meet.
I felt like climbing back into bed and pulling the curtains. I felt like I should chip the spilt Weetabix off the floor and get the house into order. I felt like I needed to work whilst Ruby slept.
I felt like doing anything – except heading to church.
But this verse wouldn’t let me: “But seek His kingdom and His righteousness first and all these things will be given to you as well.”
I ignored it. I shouted at it. I pleaded for it to go away. But it sat, looking at me with big Bible eyes. So I gave up and went.
I couldn’t tell you 95% of what we studied. (Ruby cried throughout).
I got soaking wet.
The house is still a tip and the Weetabix has been joined by some mashed potato.
My deadline’s are still looming.
These things have not yet been given to me as well…
I was reminded of what’s real:
that “I” is really “we.” That life is messier than my kitchen. That I need soul refreshment as well as physical rest. That the world is bigger than my living room and my priorities. That coffee is an essential part of modern life. That my daughter needs me to love Jesus in order to love her. That I have a family of sisters, cheering me on.
Over spilled milk and screaming children, we wrestled with life. And yes, 95% passed me by.
But 5% reminded me that Jesus is in our trials and He’s holding us tight. That’s enough for all the rest.
Matthew 6:33: But seek His kingdom and His righteousness first, and these things will be given to you as well.