Don’t compare (and despair!)

By August 9, 2019 Blog

Sometimes when my mum visits, she leaves me one of her holiday magazines. ‘Home and Hearth’. ‘Ladies and Lunching’. ‘Kitchens and Catteries’. Top tips for cutting back the ivy. 101 uses for bicarbonate of soda. Beat the menopause. And features on The Woman Who Has It All. I’d like to be one of these women. They find vaccines for diseases and start their own businesses. They storm across the West End stage and speak at power lunches. I will never …Read More

The Good Life

By July 18, 2019 Blog

A good prayer is not ‘Dear God, thank you that I’m so good and everything is perfect’, (including my grammar).  A good prayer can be inarticulate and halting; a torrent of tears and grief and anger; a slow grasping towards the light, from a very dark place. Good faith is not always about having a sense of God’s presence; or peace in the face of challenges and fears. Good faith is talking through your doubts with close Christian friends, speaking …Read More

Treasures of darkness

By June 13, 2019 Blog

Everything I’m reading at the moment seems to point to the necessity of Christian suffering.  It’s not a message I’ve been seeking. In fact, I keep trying to post it back. I turn the pages of the bible.  I put on a different song.  I pray, ‘Ok God – but not for me. Not now and frankly, not ever.’ This week I even picked out a book entitled ‘Joy’ as an antidote. (It turned out to be about the joy that comes …Read More

Better than sleep…

By June 4, 2019 Blog

We’ve recently adopted a little boy and are in the early stages of settling him in.  The wee man is doing well, and we are so thankful to be at this point. We wouldn’t swap him for the world! We are also however, very tired. This is when stresses get under the skin and start to itch.  Molehills tower over the stack of dishes and dirty nappies; it’s easy to feel like everything is too much. I have no time to …Read More

Our Father’s Voice

By May 21, 2019 Blog

I love my dad. He’s smart and kind and honest and — brilliant. ‘You take after me,’ he says. I smile;  but I don’t believe it.  I thought you knew me better than anyone, dad.  Why don’t you see it? How can you get me so wrong?  I’m not the girl he thinks I am. ‘Take heart,’ he says, but I’m scared. ‘Rest,’ he says, but I run. ‘It’s OK to be you,’ he says, yet I pull on a …Read More

Green trainers and the gospel

By January 14, 2019 Blog

My daughter loves wearing trainers, so I took her to buy some new ones. The sales assistant offered her three options in her size. Purple ones (with glitter), green ones (with a robot trim), and finally, navy ones.  They all fitted – (and they were all fabulous),  but she wasn’t keen. ‘No, no, no.’ It was late and the shop was closing, so I asked, ‘Are you sure?’ ‘Yes.  None of these.’ ‘Ok,’ I said.  ‘If you’re not going to wear …Read More

Writing for IVP

By January 3, 2019 Blog

Yesterday IVP posted an article of mine. It begins… Not long ago, I was taking my daughter, Ruby for a walk. It was mid-afternoon and she was building a tower of pebbles on the beach. My phone (which had been off all day), buzzed with an urgent question relating to work. So I tapped out a two-sentence reply. In the time it took me to type, Ruby ran behind me and tripped over the pebbles. It was my fault.  I’d taken …Read More

Listening over lists

By March 13, 2018 Blog

The Bible’s open and my brain is shouting ‘do something else.’ It started as a whisper, but the longer I resist, the more urgent it becomes. ‘Emma’, it says. ‘Finish the washing-up.  Answer email. Take those bags to the charity shop. Fill out the forms.’ I ignore it, and it starts to huff. ‘Take a break’ it whines. ‘It’s been a busy week and you’ve got time to yourself!  Go shopping. Surf the net. Relax. Read a book, (but not …Read More

The Shape of Me: Guest Post

By July 11, 2017 Blog

Thanks so much to H for this brilliant guest post…   I am so, so caught with my appearance…I know this is only a symptom of deeper problems. Yet I just want to pause and ask the question, why am I so concerned with ‘the shape of me’? It is right to care how I present myself because I am not just my own person. Being concerned with ‘the shape of me’ is a desire that needs to be channelled, focused, redirected. I …Read More

Seeing Through The Sneers

By April 18, 2016 Blog

I’m tired of cynicism. Propping up the bar, all dark and self-conscious. You’re cool mate, but you’re miserable too. Standing back and passing judgement. Stamping on Shrugging at other people’s parades. Sneering, ‘it’ll never work. The world’s not like that.” Refusing to ever see the good. Well, forget it. It’s been fun…well – interesting, while it lasted.  But I’ve met someone new. Someone you know. Hope.  Yeah, her. The one we used to laugh at. “Unfashionable and embarrassing,” we said. …Read More