What sort of God?

By October 17, 2019 Blog

We all want beauty; something so bright we fall to our knees before it.  Something bigger than us; the kind that makes us shield our eyes but look and look and look again. We never grow out of this yearning; but it takes different forms. The newborn reaches for her mother’s earring. The toddler, transfixed by Christmas lights.  Teens, scrolling furiously through pages of Insta-perfection. The bible says we’re made to worship and it’s beauty that captures our hearts. But …Read More

Straws and safety-nets

By October 10, 2019 Blog

There are times in our lives when everything seems wrong.  A workplace that demands everything; but gives nothing back.  A relationship on the rocks; or no relationship at all. A baby who refuses to sleep; a scowling teen who won’t meet your gaze. Maybe it’s something you can’t talk about – or something you can’t see. Bruises; inside or out. Loneliness; depression; pain or grief.  Sadness that smothers; thick crests of anger that die, quick as they surge. Hold on, friends …Read More

That’s not my God…

By July 29, 2019 Blog

I’m reading a great devotional for busy mums.  It talks about the importance of coming before God in silence and stillness. Yes, I think.  Yes. But how? Noise is the tapestry of my days.  Toys that sing when you step on them. The hum of the washing machine; car horns honking; the chatter and clatter of dishes and children. No breaks and no off switch. No time for anything else. That’s not quite true. It is possible to carve out …Read More

Our Father’s Voice

By May 21, 2019 Blog

I love my dad. He’s smart and kind and honest and — brilliant. ‘You take after me,’ he says. I smile;  but I don’t believe it.  I thought you knew me better than anyone, dad.  Why don’t you see it? How can you get me so wrong?  I’m not the girl he thinks I am. ‘Take heart,’ he says, but I’m scared. ‘Rest,’ he says, but I run. ‘It’s OK to be you,’ he says, yet I pull on a …Read More

How to stay in love

By January 31, 2018 Blog

Joshua 23:11: “Be very careful to love the LORD your God.”   tell Him what you love about Him make a point of saying thank-you for the big and little things you take for granted sit in silence together keep talking.  Before you go to anyone else, tell Him listen – really listen – to Him. (Don’t assume, limit or caricature Him). remind yourself of why you first fell in love share a good book. eat together. spend time with …Read More

Abba and Babba

By February 9, 2016 Blog

I’m afraid my daughter takes after me. Tell her she can’t have something and straight away, she wants it. The jagged rock. The rusty tin-opener.  The kitchen cleaner. Today we’ve lurched from one potential disaster to another.   DON’T PUT YOUR FINGERS IN THE PLUG NO, THAT’S THE CAT’S ANGRY FACE GIVE THE KNIFE TO MUMMY WHAT’S THAT IN YOUR MOUTH?  SPIT IT OUT RUBY, SPIT IT OUT   Surrounded by stacking rings, spoons, story books, shape sorters, bubbles, blocks and balls, she wants …Read More

Rules of Parenting

By February 1, 2016 Blog

My parents are baby-sitting my daughter tomorrow. So I’ve left them instructions.   Rules of Parenting: 1. Don’t make her wear a hat or coat – especially if it’s cold outside.  She might catch a cold, but suffering is good and will develop her character. 2.  If she gets sick, don’t give her medicine.  She can get better if she believes she can. 3. Always give her exactly what she wants.  For example, if she wants to play near the fire, let …Read More

Bad things are not good.

By January 12, 2016 Blog

When bad things happen to you or the people you love, how do you try to comfort them? “It’s not so bad?” “It’ll all work out for the best?” “Things could be worse.  I heard of one guy who…” “Don’t waste time worrying about it.”   If you’re a Christian, maybe you say this: “God’s in charge so He must have caused/wanted this.” “God has made it happen for a reason, even if we can’t see it.” “God doesn’t want …Read More

Bleeding Love

By January 20, 2015 Blog

The last few weeks have been a whirlwind, a learning curve, a journey and a million other cliches that try – and fail to capture the reality. Nappies, stitches and sleepless nights, I was prepared for.  What I hadn’t anticipated was the heart surgery. The fierce and painful emotion that courses, hot, through every vein. Love, I suppose.  But not like I love my cats or I love books or I love mashed potatoes. Something else – primitive and frightening.  I’d die …Read More

Boxed In

By December 22, 2014 Blog

One of the things I like most about Christmas, is boxes.  Lots of boxes.  What’s in them is irrelevant.  It’s the box itself that’s beautiful.  Clean lines and corners.  Sealant and staples.  Neat.  Tidy.  Contained. Perfect – until you unwrap it.  And then – MESS!  HORRIBLE MESS! Sellotape and spillage and then, not even bubble wrap but those pointless snow ball things you’re still hoovering in May. The solution is obvious.  Don’t Open The Box.  Keep it, shuttered and secure, somewhere dark, where only …Read More