Bleeding Love

By January 20, 2015 Blog

The last few weeks have been a whirlwind, a learning curve, a journey and a million other cliches that try – and fail to capture the reality. Nappies, stitches and sleepless nights, I was prepared for.  What I hadn’t anticipated was the heart surgery. The fierce and painful emotion that courses, hot, through every vein. Love, I suppose.  But not like I love my cats or I love books or I love mashed potatoes. Something else – primitive and frightening.  I’d die …Read More

Boxed In

By December 22, 2014 Blog

One of the things I like most about Christmas, is boxes.  Lots of boxes.  What’s in them is irrelevant.  It’s the box itself that’s beautiful.  Clean lines and corners.  Sealant and staples.  Neat.  Tidy.  Contained. Perfect – until you unwrap it.  And then – MESS!  HORRIBLE MESS! Sellotape and spillage and then, not even bubble wrap but those pointless snow ball things you’re still hoovering in May. The solution is obvious.  Don’t Open The Box.  Keep it, shuttered and secure, somewhere dark, where only …Read More

Hard World, Kind God

By November 23, 2014 Blog

Most of the time, I live life like I’m dreaming. Maybe you’re the same. It takes no effort – the minutes propel us forwards, into routines of socks and schedules and sandwiches.  Days, weeks, months…years like waves, lulling us to sleep. Life – unchanging, except for a peppering of balloons and wreaths; anniversaries, birthdays and deaths. But sometimes, something happens to shake us awake. An event.  Perhaps a tragedy. And once we’ve been woken, we can’t go back to sleep.  The world looks …Read More

Father Talk

By June 22, 2014 Blog

Thanks to J for showing me this: A letter from your Dad: You may not know me, but I know everything about you. Psalm 139:1 I know when you sit down and when you rise up. Psalm 139:2 I am familiar with all your ways.Psalm 139:3 Even the very hairs on your head are numbered. Matthew 10:29-31 For you were made in my image. Genesis 1:27 In me you live and move and have your being. Acts 17:28 For you are my offspring. Acts 17:28 I knew …Read More

The Original and The Best

By June 15, 2014 Blog

Whatever your experience with your earthly father, as a Christian,  this is your heavenly Father: He loves us: I led them with cords of human kindness, with ties of love. To them I was like one who lifts a little child to the cheek, and I bent down to feed them. Hosea 11:4 He knew us even in our mother’s womb: For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully …Read More

What God is Not

By March 10, 2014 Blog

God is not: holy Berocca: extra-special energy for extreme situations, or a pick-me-up for bad days your homeboy a lunch date for Sundays a policeman waiting to pounce a prankster: tying your laces and giggling when you trip a portable teddy bear:  wheel him out for cuddles when you’re feeling sad. a provider of parking spaces lonely and in need of mates a hole that fits between your pancreas and kidneys Gandalf divine disinfectant: to be sprayed into tricky corners …Read More

Ungrateful Owners

By July 29, 2013 Blog

Paws and I have been debating.  She says I think too much: but I can’t help it. I’m smart: always have been.  But this time the Hairless One’s gone too far. Poking his nose in my business. Changing things when they’re just how I like. 8am He feeds us. Then again at 6. Thick and meaty – with a nice jelly jus. We used to have great times knocking the bowl over, but He changed it and now we can’t. …Read More

Pregnancy and Prayer

By July 15, 2013 Blog

It occurs to me that prayer feels a bit like trying to get pregnant. Bear with me here. I don’t mean real prayer, to the God of the Bible.  I mean my muddled view of it.  In the quest for a baby, I have a number of strategies.  Excluding the obvious, these include: 1. Reading lots of ‘how-to’ books Not all ‘how-to’ books are crazy.  But it’s amazing what you’ll I’ll listen to when desperate. Things you wouldn’t even consider were …Read More

Even When It’s Bad, It’s Good

By July 8, 2013 Blog

I don’t know what your Monday looks like.  I don’t know how your week is shaped; or what you feel about the month ahead. Using my mystical powers, I predict there will be challenges.  Personal, professional, relational, financial. Some will be manageable.  Others seem insurmountable. Some will sneak up from behind; and some have been scheduled in advance. But whatever is coming: sickness, sadness, addiction, loss – here’s what we can count on. ‘I am the Lord your God.  I …Read More

Dear Christian

By June 4, 2013 Blog

There’s something you should know. I will always be here. I am utterly, irreversibly committed to you. I know you. I know you. And I delight in you. You are not a burden, or a time-waster or a drain or a disappointment or an inconvenience. I am not annoyed with you. I don’t want you to be someone else. When I look at you, I am delighted with what I have made. When will you see yourself as I do? …Read More