What sort of God?

By October 17, 2019 Blog

We all want beauty; something so bright we fall to our knees before it.  Something bigger than us; the kind that makes us shield our eyes but look and look and look again. We never grow out of this yearning; but it takes different forms. The newborn reaches for her mother’s earring. The toddler, transfixed by Christmas lights.  Teens, scrolling furiously through pages of Insta-perfection. The bible says we’re made to worship and it’s beauty that captures our hearts. But …Read More

Straws and safety-nets

By October 10, 2019 Blog

There are times in our lives when everything seems wrong.  A workplace that demands everything; but gives nothing back.  A relationship on the rocks; or no relationship at all. A baby who refuses to sleep; a scowling teen who won’t meet your gaze. Maybe it’s something you can’t talk about – or something you can’t see. Bruises; inside or out. Loneliness; depression; pain or grief.  Sadness that smothers; thick crests of anger that die, quick as they surge. Hold on, friends …Read More

Running On Empty – and Spirit-Filled

By September 19, 2019 Blog

How do you know when the Holy Spirit is working in your life? you have incredible dreams and visions you’ve given up on all your old sins and are temptation-free.  Things you’ve wrestled with in the past are completely resolved you know you’re exactly where God wants you to be and doing precisely what he wants you to do you’ve never felt closer to God others look to you as an example of faith and strength. you go to a …Read More

When the ‘wrong’ words are right

By August 25, 2019 Blog

This is not the blog post I planned to write. The one I planned was short and snazzy. It had a catchy title, ‘Questions you should never ask.’ Or, even better: TEN THINGS YOU SHOULD STOP SAYING TO HURTING PEOPLE, RIGHT NOW! A neat list of questions to make you quiver. The kind that, when asked of you, make you fold yourself into tiny triangles. Missiles, like these: Don’t you think it’s time to move on from your grief? Why aren’t …Read More

10 Myths of Perfectionism

By August 15, 2019 Blog

This is one from the archives.  But it seems appropriate as September looms and I start obsessing about new pencil cases and Getting Everything Right. Perfectionism porkies: 1. It makes me into a better person. Actually, no. It makes me a real pain to be around. Grumpier. More critical.  More self-focused. And lonely (because ‘friends’ are actually competition). 2. It helps me perform. The reality – it stops me even trying. 3. I feel better knowing that I’ve done my …Read More

Don’t compare (and despair!)

By August 9, 2019 Blog

Sometimes when my mum visits, she leaves me one of her holiday magazines. ‘Home and Hearth’. ‘Ladies and Lunching’. ‘Kitchens and Catteries’. Top tips for cutting back the ivy. 101 uses for bicarbonate of soda. Beat the menopause. And features on The Woman Who Has It All. I’d like to be one of these women. They find vaccines for diseases and start their own businesses. They storm across the West End stage and speak at power lunches. I will never …Read More

Chasing my shadow

By July 4, 2019 Blog

It’s the big question of this (and maybe every) age. Who am I, really?  Is there a core essence, a slice of me-ness that marks me out from everyone else? If so, am I born with it; or is it something I have to seek out and discover? What I if don’t like what’s there? Can I learn to be something different? One question leads to another and another after that. When will it happen, this self-discovery? When I meet …Read More

Blessed are the mentally ill because…

By June 20, 2019 Blog

…in our weakness we can learn certain strengths: humility: suddenly, the plug is pulled.  You’re not who you thought you were; and it hurts.  You can’t think yourself out of it or get your act together. But with it, a savage freedom; a letting go – because it’s been taken from you. And in your emptiness, a new understanding of grace. God does it all – He always did, but now you see it. dependence: to survive, you must learn …Read More

Better than Disney…

By May 30, 2019 Blog

My daughter is obsessed with the story of ‘Beauty and the Beast’. In fact, it’s now the soundtrack to not just my waking, but my sleeping hours. Along with some great songs, it’s another window on the truths of the gospel. Here’s a brilliant video from Go Chatter that explains why…             Share…FacebookTwitterTumblrPinterestGoogle+StumbleUponDiggemail

My first post

By May 16, 2019 Blog

Thanks for all of your prayers and messages of support for us over the next few weeks and months.  Thanks too for reading this blog! I realised today, it’s been nearly nine years.  So to celebrate, here’s my very first post…   I’ve finally caved in. I am now ‘a blogger.’ I’ve been holding out against this for a long time. My husband’s been nagging me to blog ever since he started 3 years ago. I’ve always called myself a …Read More