Dangerous Drifting

By January 23, 2012 Blog, identity

Recently I’ve been feeling somewhat flat. I’ve been waking up with a vague sense of discontent, surreptitiously feeding it and then feeling sorry for myself and wondering why it’s still hanging around. I have, my friends, been coasting.  Treading the water of life and persuading myself I’ll be floating in the same place a few weeks later. Except that it doesn’t work quite like that.  When it comes to my relationship with Jesus, (perhaps as with all relationships), I’m either …Read More

Gloriously Out of Control

By November 28, 2011 Blog

Apparently the most popular song choice for funerals, is ‘My Way’ by Sinatra. In many ways, I can’t think of anything more tragic or appropriate – but not necessarily for the reasons you might think. Yes, it’s a powerful song and yes, the words are striking. But for me at least, it’s the power that accompanies exposure.  The jolt of familiarity as I’m struck by the pride and selfishness of my own heart.  And an unwavering insistence on doing it …Read More


By November 8, 2011 Blog

They’re not like us.  The rich, the talented, the beautiful.  They’re sheltered, strong, immune to the doubt and despair that assails the weak.   4 They have no struggles;    their bodies are healthy and strong. 5 They are free from common human burdens;    they are not plagued by human ills. (Psalm 73) Well, amen to that. I’ve been thinking it for years. And close on its heels bark the ‘What If’s’. Not to mention the ‘If Only’s’. What if I could be like X?  If only I had this..or this…or …Read More

Words To Die By

By November 4, 2011 Blog

‘Better to burn out than fade away’. I heard this on the radio earlier and thought to myself, ‘What a pile of crap’. Sorry, but it is. As a line on a t-shirt it might look alright, but as a life strategy it stinks. It stinks if you’re comparing yourself to supermum, trying to take your kids to tai chi and maintain your sanity. It stinks if you’re director of the board, siphoning your strength into a company that’ll spit …Read More

Danse Macabre

By October 27, 2011 Blog

When did Halloween become so HUGE?  Seriously, you can’t step outside the house without being accosted by some sort of ghoul or smothered in cobwebs.. (Actually wait – that’s inside the house – note to self, must dust. ( Next Year Job.) Nor is there one unifying theme.  Marks + Spencers, normally the bastion of shortbread and cosy respectability, seem particularly conflicted. Exhibit A – enormous chocolate halloween eggs, priced at £18.99. Look, I like chocolate as much as the next person. But at that …Read More

Quick Fix

By October 13, 2011 Blog

‘Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things’. Sound words from Philippians 4:8.  And I agree with them – to an extent. But isn’t the idea of dwelling on the good a little bit – er, boring? Trite? I’d much rather find out what’s going down in the Big Brother house thanks. No, can’t say that.   Perhaps I’m uncomfortable because  it’s a little vague. Is this just …Read More

Banking with Jesus

By October 5, 2011 Blog

Been challenged about money recently.  Urg.  I don’t like challenges.  Challenging situations tend to be painful ones.  Challenging sermons (especially about money) always make me shuffle guiltily in my seat. As soon as I hear the words, ‘gift day’, a little bit of me crawls into a hole and Feels Bad – too often without actually doing anything about it. Why is this? For one thing, I’ve always had a fear of not having enough.  Not enough tinned tuna or …Read More


By September 13, 2011 Blog

The kingdom of heaven is all about reversals. Or rather, our world is about reversals – the kingdom’s got it right.  So much of what we think is good, turns out to be bad, whilst the suffering or discomfort we fear is in fact blessed. Take for example, beauty.  In our society, this is everything. Ask a little girl (and increasingly boy) what they want to be when they grow up, and the answer is beautiful. Who we are is …Read More

Day in the Life

By August 6, 2011 Blog

Perhaps you consider your family demanding.  But spare a thought for those dealing with requests from beyond the grave.  In China, manufacturers of  iPads are having trouble keeping up with demand. But these aren’t ordinary iPads – they’re paper replicas – just  one of a number of luxury goods which  are sent to the spirit world by being burned.  Jeffrey Te, owner of a prayer goods shop in Malaysia, says this: ‘Some of my customers have dreams where their departed …Read More

Money For Nothing

By August 4, 2011 Blog

So, it’s the holiday season and I’ve been perusing different options. I will of course stay home and grumble, but had I wanted adventure, I might require more than Thomas Cook.  For a truly modern experience,  I require the services of a ‘spiritual concierge’. What does such a company offer? Let’s start with visualisation sessions, reiki, brain softening and personalisation ceremonies.  Instead of just yoga and a trip down the Ganges, you’ll get your own shaman and a tour guide …Read More