Glen comes home to find me, face-down on the sofa. The house looks like we’ve been burgled. The kids are hollering and trying to find a comfortable sitting position on my spine. ‘How was your day?‘ I mumble into a cushion. ‘Yeah, fine. Couple of meetings. Finishing scripts for new Christmas videos. Skyped someone in the States. Wrote my talks for the conference and sent off a manuscript. Sent off the funding applications and did a session on Trinity with the …Read More
But those who wait on the Lord Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31 What does it mean to wait for the Lord? waiting expectantly – trusting that we’re not treading water, or wasting time. God hasn’t forgotten about us. He hears; and this waiting is part of His answer focusing on His faithfulness in the past. Looking to His …Read More
“Do not worry”, says Jesus in the sermon on the mount (verse reference, Matthew 6:25-34). So we worry, (or at least, I do). We worry to start with, because that’s who we are. And then we read this verse … and worry MORE, because we’re disobeying God. Telling us not to do something only shows us how impossible it is to obey. Like telling ourselves to “be purple”. No amount of willpower makes it better. So what do we do, when we can’t …Read More
I have mixed feelings about Lent. Part of me wants to throw myself into it with super-human resolve. Part of me fears I’ll do exactly this. I have a long history of eating disorders, depression and perfectionism. Ask me to fast for 40 days and I’ll do forty-one. Tell me to do 40 press-ups and I’ll do 400. I’m all about a certain kind of ‘self-restraint.’ But it’s nearly killed me. You’ll tell me, rightly, that this is not what …Read More
On bad days, my version of Christian discipleship is not the official one. It’s a ledger with four columns. The first one says, ‘how am I feeling?’ (scored from 1 (atrocious/shouldn’t have been born) to 10 (So good it HURTS) The second one asks, ‘what am I worth?’ (based on answer to no 1) The third one says ‘what did I do to deserve this score?’ And the fourth one says, ‘how can I make it better?’ It might sound complicated, but it’s comes very naturally. Let …Read More
Summer’s here! Your body may be Beach Ready, but is your soul Preach Ready? Scared to strip off at small group? Sick of comparing yourself to the worship leader? Take Control and Fight the spiritual flab. It’s time to Take Back Your Temple – starting NOW. Try our NEW 40-day plan: You’ve nothing to lose, but your sins! Breakfast: Champions don’t just read their Bibles. They Do #Devotions, (now with 30% more Minor Prophets). Channel your spiritual qi by shouting “Jesus” “Preach it” each time you read …Read More
I’d like the world to be more definite. Clarity on life’s big issues. Black or white. Right or wrong. Christian or Not Christian. Baptism. Breast feeding. Beards. Boxed Sets. Tell me what to think and I can keep my brain in neutral. YES or NO. Anything but ‘maybe.’ ‘Maybe’ is like boot camp for the brain. Hard graft, early starts and endless sweaty questions that often take you back where you started. Muddied, messy middle ground. Well, I don’t like mess. I don’t want to have to work …Read More
If you’re anything like me, your instinctive reaction to depression or addiction or difficulty will be to try harder. In Christian terms, it looks like this: praying longer, studying the Bible more and generally being a “better Christian.” These things are great – but they are not the gospel. The point of Christianity is not ‘keeping up our end of the deal’. The point is a marriage-relationship with Jesus. We haven’t entered a contractual arrangement with Jesus but a covenant of love. He’s a spouse, …Read More
My mum has recently discovered the joys of email. Unfortunately she’s trigger happy when it comes to punctuation. Everything is written in CAPS and with EXCLAMATION MARKS!!!!!!!! So it feels like she’s shouting and jumping up and down, even when it’s just an update on her jigsaw. Galatians 2:19-21 is the equivalent of mum’s outbox and on days like today, when I’m feeling sub-standard, it hits the spot. Here’s how Paul puts it, (indented words mine) THROUGH THE LAW I …Read More
Shame is a blush that starts round your neck and spreads to your bones. It silences you and shrinks you and stamps you like a stain. Shame is about exposure: being naked in front of others and them seeing you in all your ugliness and seeing all the things you want to hide. You want to say ‘it wasn’t me, wait – I didn’t do it’. But you DID and you’re in the spotlight and everyone saw. So what do you do …Read More
